ysaelektra.alexa

2011-12-12T22:02:00.002+08:00

toying with the idea of setting up a new blog. this is way too secondary school and is not under the brand ysaelektra.

ha ha ha i swear i am obsessed.

and i really, really, really need a supplier/tailor/seamstress/SOMEBODY ANYBODY to make my clothes for me. anybody ? (;

x

i shouldnt be.

2011-11-20T04:01:00.003+08:00

complaining. about how tough \ tiring is. in the entire sem i think they days i study add up to probably less than a month.

about 8 days i will be done with my third semester in nus. this sounds undeserving but i really hope i will do well . cross fingers \:

on another note, i find myself bitchy\mean sometimes because i dont hide what i feel. when i dont like somebody i dont act like i do. not that i actively show my dislike, i just.. dont want to be fake.

like how some people i know are.

tumblr

2011-11-10T02:34:00.001+08:00

not the starbucks one.....

haha i got a tumblr :)

girls y'all should know how to find it right ? btw give me your links !

two favourite things.

2011-11-08T19:28:00.005+08:00

blogging just reminded me how bad i suck at thinking of blog titles lol.

@cam do i look like a model ? lmao!

still damn excited by my december plans

and i wanna do music also , even though im not good at it. seems like december wont be boring for me :D

i hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited but i, couldnt stay away i couldnt fight it

me right now

2011-11-08T04:34:00.003+08:00

my hair grew out. &i lost alot of weight, which hovers between 40-42kg. my body clock changes every week. i hardly ever study. all i want to do is shop eat play sleep.

sigh i am a pig lol

life changes. like everything else. so whats the big deal about change ?

Nov 2011

2011-11-08T04:27:00.002+08:00

it has been so. long. blogging doesnt feel like a part of me anymore. guess its just a secondary school kind of thing. but i miss having the opportunity to sort out my thoughts and put it into words.

20 years old now &i havent done anything spectacular with my life. toying with the idea of setting up an online retail store. not the blogshop kind. something more sophisticated than that. but still, sg is saturated with that and im not sure how successful my store will be.

life is a blur now......

really. fake

2011-03-11T08:54:00.002+08:00

are people of our age these days very fake ?
nails hair eyecolours nose eyes lips , in and out

but there are some people i really look up to . coolshitzx

you turned around

2011-02-06T02:02:00.002+08:00

didnt think you would turn around, come back , just to break my heart..

ironically, today i saw the first example that defied whatever i believed in. there was this family of 4 , mum malay, but the rest of the family arent muslim. it can happen i guess .

but some things arent meant to be, some people arent meant for me. the world is fckd &thats the cold hard truth.

sem hasnt even started &. .

2011-01-10T01:44:00.002+08:00

whoever's reading this is probably who im close t

i gotta say, sem hasnt started but theres already alot of work for me to be done this sem. i dread this sem cause its gonna be so damn tough, yet im looking forward to how much il get to grow &to be all the ppl il be with

il be damn busy, with everything. i still havent settled down \ be mentally prepared for this sem. its so weird that im busy with everything but when i come to think of it, who am i really giving my time to ?

i hope , yall can understand that its not that i dont want to spend time with yall, but im going to be so stretched. well its not the physical distance that matters as long as our hearts are connected my dear friends ! c:

spin

2010-11-26T16:47:00.002+08:00

things are spinning out of control already , i honestly. dont. know. what to do. or how to deal with all these. i have no answers. and im plagued by my conscience. maybe things will just work out on its own. nobody knows whats really going on , okay maybe except one or two. i know how heartless i seem right now, but until you really know, who are you to judge? &if you really know , then you shouldn be judging. 'cause those who mind dont matter, &those who matter dont mind'

is it love. i dont know

all i hear is raindrops

2010-11-26T15:33:00.002+08:00

i guess today still means alot to the both of us. coming down early in the morning to give me a whole bag of stuff, without having to see me , that shows alot. im damn thankful that god put him in my life. hes sweet, thoughtful, damn nice to me . too nice to me . i dont deserve to be treated like that cause i know that theres nothing i can give back to him. &i feel so, so bad. &this is wrong cause there shouldnt be guilt in a relationship.

i dont want to break his heart cause i cant bear to .

26 for the 18th time

2010-11-26T02:42:00.000+08:00

will today mean something that it had for the past 18times or will it just be another day ?

no. :c

final éxams

2010-11-25T17:10:00.001+08:00

when your assets differ from yr liabilities & equity by like $50k, you know there's no point in finding out where you went wrong. & you probably won't even know where you went wrong. cause i didnt. its so painful to go through exams \: not cause of the studying , but because i have to sit through papers that i know im so under prepared for. well at least i can always leave after the first hour! but it sucks to see others scribbling to the last second while im stoning \looking around.

& today i saw a few girls wearing wedges to exams , nice , not. cause they strangely had a similar trait - they either looked unfeminine or they behaved that way. this girl was lik sitting so boorishly (i don't rly knw wht tht means lol)

painful period. with a broken heart & a death in t family , & t piling pressure of exams.

one more day til exam . .

2010-11-19T18:09:00.002+08:00

i have never felt so unprepared or studied so little for any exam before. i need somebody to push me nonstop, sadly there isnt anybody here. cause everybody here is either studying damn hard to have time to bother about anything or, they are playing.

hall is probably gonna be bad for my studies, but its my fault also cause if i really had the motivation &discipline to do so i would have studied already. too late for regrets. i need some, probably lots of luck tmr. &whatever wisdom that God is willing to bestow upon me \:

im so distracted right now. my tonsil is still bloody swollen, it doesnt help that i have ulcers on the tonsil area, which feels like its threatening to tear my throat apart. stomach cramps. body aches. & matters of the heart . .

sometimes time &space will provide an answer. i guess

feeling under the weather

2010-11-17T03:07:00.001+08:00

my first paper starts on saturday &i hardly studied for anything at all. right now my tonsil is damn swollen, my nose is running, im feeling damn cold. luckily im being spared for my stomach cramps which killed me since 11pm last night til this morning. i feel like im dying. ah but we're all dying anyway .

total eclipse of the heart

2010-11-08T15:40:00.001+08:00

'love is knowing that he still wants you even though youre a bitch.'
this got so many likes on fb. but right now i dont even know if he still wants me

i think i have more posts in the past few days than in the entire year.

every now &then i get a little bit lonely

2010-11-08T15:09:00.003+08:00

current playlist:
total eclipse of a heart
better as a memory
straight from the heart

&i have lost all taste for food. i dont have the slightest desire to eat

every now &then i fall apart

my sis.

2010-11-07T16:56:00.002+08:00

shes rehearsing her op in front of me &its cracking us up like, every single time hahahahhaha shes SO ANIMATED its damn funny. im trying hard not to laugh but i hear the laughter in her voice so we end up cracking up anyway

times like these make me miss living at home :c

pictureperfectmemories

2010-11-07T16:00:00.006+08:00

recently. .

what today means

2010-11-07T15:57:00.003+08:00

idk . it doesnt feel like im alone, it definitely doesnt. cause i know that we'll never be apart. selfish, bitchy, whatever negative stuff il just take it cause, i have nothing to defend myself.

love is not about being with the person you love, although thats a marvellous feeling. but love is about giving space, &trusting that the person is still in your heart \ loves you \ will come back for you. the best thing about love, is just loving somebody itself.

im not defining love, theres no one true definition to love. &i dont even know if i know what love is. but right now i believe that its so and that love is such to me.

its not possible to stop loving somebody suddenly, or stop at all if its you mh.

currently

2010-11-07T02:10:00.000+08:00

0210hours, i have yet to bathe, remove my makeup, contacts, brush my teeth &wash up.

&why is my navbar at the top so screwed ?

the decorated

2010-11-07T01:47:00.002+08:00

me: i wna get lip piercings
mum: NO, im telling you no
me: im just telling you
mum: no i say no ah , no. you're a business student once you pierce your standard drop already
me: i'll take it out after a month
mum: no, set a good example to your siblings
mum: no you better not

lol

nocturnal

2010-11-01T04:36:00.000+08:00

my navbar at the top is screwed up &idk how to fix it. noob much

yep im most awake at this time of the day, more like night. its not til 5 6 7 til i get slpy. &i just feel so , dead in the day sometimes. i love the night. i love the silence and peace, and the chills that the wind brings.

well of course it screws up my body clock &i have developed this inability to wake up before say, 11 ? which spells trouble cause exams are dead near.

BOYS SUCK

2010-10-13T23:07:00.002+08:00

i really really really hate doing my accounting tutorial. zz im lagging by alot right now already. & every week's zooming by damn quickly. i just dont have the discipline to sit down & do my work &study .

with each day that passes i amaze myself because i manage to go through everything that i have to , block comm green comm safety comm all my projects lectures tutorials . idk how i do it sometimes.

sometimes my drive is damn high but sometimes things\thoughts hit me hard and impede me . tmr i have mno proj meetup, acc proj meetup, bizlaw proj meetup, acc tut to do, block meeting &green comm exhibition meeting

HOW CAN I CRAM SO MUCH IN A DAY. SIGH!

i know right

2010-10-09T03:16:00.001+08:00

i know im not damn plettiiii or hot or cute or whatever, but it always cheers me up when somebody says that i look nice today, or that my headband is nice, or that they like me top, or jeans, or dress hahh etc. &i hope they mean it .

my life as a hall resident

2010-10-03T20:57:00.001+08:00

yeah how can i NOT photobooth!

hell lot of work to do &stuff to settle. a million deadlines to meet. schl hall family boyfriend friends. thats alot to handle really

my first personal development and grooming class and . .

2010-09-27T19:43:00.001+08:00

'Dear students,

Good news for you! The President of Singapore, Mr S.R. Nathan, will be visiting the NUS Business School on 28 Sep at 3.00pm and he will stop by BFS1001 class as well. As such, we seek your understanding and co-operation to be punctual (2.55pm) for the class. The class will start at exactly 3:00pm. Please take note of the dress code which is office attire.'

mega lol ? so funny i cant believe this is happening, the options that nus open up are endless

HOW MESSY CAN I GET

2010-09-22T23:20:00.003+08:00

packing my kr room now, ever since i came back from bkk &lugged my entire pasarmalam bag (the red green blue yellow striped one) to kr, my room has been DAMN MESSY. its like a storm came in &blew everything around. and this room isnt exactly very big.

so i figured i need to bring some stuff home or else im gonna die when sem ends, &im scared ppl will steal my stuff &i have nothing to wear when i go home! seriously no underwear siah hahahahah &THAT I ALSO NEED TO PACK MY ROOM.

incredible numbers
5watches
6shades, 1 geek specs
12 bags. TWELVE OMG
countless recycle bags

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ok i pack halfway now im like glued to my comp &uploading all my dslr picts woohoo way overdue!

&im damn obsessed with these few chinese songs right now. im chinese &i treasure my roots so i am not CHEENA just because i listen to chinese songs, be proud of your language pls ! to whoever who thinks chinese is shit!

神木与瞳宽恕: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PP0OF_AOVFY
龚芝怡明知我爱你: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O6VhGaVU6Ws
龚芝怡手中線: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjINImZrSaU&feature=related
shes a singaporean artist , i havent heard real talent like this in a long time manz :D

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opps its 317 now &i still havent published this post. i really wish i had some technology to transfer all the knowledge from books into my head, then i wouldn be awake reading my acc textbook now T.T

stepping up

2010-09-07T13:05:00.001+08:00

last night i gave the best speech of my life , bc i hvn rly given one before hehe. its not that the speech was the best anybody had ever heard of but its t best one i ever gave!

if you're wondering what happened last night, cblock held blockcomm meeting. & because i won't be around on weds i just had to give it after the new blockhead was elected \: imagine that kinda stress!

(this is sucha lame post right bt i rly wna share it & make a record of smtg i feel proud of wht!) ever since the blockhead nominee gave his speech my heart started to pound, bc imo his speech was so well organized & fluent , &obviously that's not my style ~

so when i had to do my speech my fellow freshies went lik o: did you prepare! im lik yaa i did , but my speech was practically rolled up into like, half a cigarette hah! & i just went up to do it , bc i had to & i knew i cld!

first 10secs into it i was nervous as hell my brain was paralysed but after that , i just realised that if i cldn giv a speech to my friends , how can i ever do it to a bigger audience next time

hehe so i just said everything i felt in my 5wks here in kr , & what i sincerely felt. i guess i did well bc my friends liked it. & i hope that me starting the ball rolling will encourage the other cblockers who r running fr comm! go yall im sure that if i cn do it then everybody else can (:

thanks

2010-09-02T13:46:00.002+08:00

im so thankful for being in kr , because being here makes me much more outgoing &vocalised . &i meet alot of people here , which gives me a chance to hone my talking skills

thats why today even without preparing (i only had what i want to say in my brain lol) , i managed to give a 90secs speech without feeling afraid or stumbling like a stutter. even though it was not the best shit ever but at least its a good start.

k THINK. POSITIVE.

&right now im in my room playing my guitar relaxing &just NOT thinking about work (y) relekkkktime

uni curriculum

2010-08-31T22:32:00.003+08:00

im learning all i have learnt in h1 bio in like a few weeks. 1 chapter per 2hour lecture!!
at least i already know whats going on

accountancy lectures = one chpt\2hr lecture also. & I HAVENT EVEN CAUGHT UP ON THE PREVIOUS ONE. this week's tut is here. at this rate im going to PHAIL miserably. &one chpt consists of so much &so many pages. &ive never touched acc before. die much.

i want to go to arts pls. where i (LOOK LIKE I ) belong

felicia

2010-08-30T23:38:00.002+08:00

today i met felicia(chin) in the lift , i dont really talk to her because everytime i see her , theres at least 3 people talking to her hah

yes but it was only felicia , my neighbour &i in the lift today so , we talked. i told her that we're living on the same floor. &her reply was. oh we're in the same lect right ? i saw you . &i was like just o: , flattered hah

&i told her i was scared to go talk to her when i saw her around biz , because she walks damn fast. &she laughed &said no laa its a habit &she grabbed my arm . friendly much!

anyway world, shes a normal girl who probably wants to do this like any other undergrad. i guess. &after seeing alexachung . .

KR

2010-08-29T22:37:00.001+08:00

hehe i just bought new speakers &a floor rug. anything to make my room feel nicer! but i feel like its perpetually messy o:

&i got a new blue mouse , i like !

coming to kr makes me feel like the world is unfair! seriously there are people here who are damn pretty\handsome and can play like all the sports. (bc its ibg now)

this is . damn . crazy. especially when i suck at sports hahahah and people who are pretty and have good results and have their own cars. i got to get my dumb license soon I NEED TO PASS MY SECOND TP TEST. urhghghhghghghgh

coming to kr has changed me , despite this short while. i feel much more independent now. &my outlook on things has become much more positive. since i cant play sports, i can support them :D

awesome

2010-08-26T02:39:00.000+08:00

TODAY, I MET THE AWESOME ALEXA CHUNG. IN REAL LIFE.
&I TOOK A PICT WITH HER.
:D

2010-08-25T02:32:00.001+08:00

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

HOW TO NOT GET SICK ?

2010-08-23T12:55:00.002+08:00

staying in hall means having to look after yourself properly. sure its damn easy to keep up late nights, ¬ eat properly (esp when hall food sucks in comparison to home food) &just not drinking enough water. &playing sports without stretching &all hah

obviously it wasnt too long before my body just suffered t effects of all this nonsense. &falling sick in hall is a very bad thing especially when theres no proper food around zz. just after one proper meal &lots of fluids im feeling much better now, &im scared to go back to hall again \:

i need to get my license &a car so i can drive around for food ! yesterday was t worst day of my life im not going to let it happen again! &everybody else in hall (if yall so stalker &manage t find my blog hah) pls eat drink rest well!

ysaelektra's (birthday) wishlist

2010-08-14T15:32:00.000+08:00

i know this is so dangerously near my birthday but these r some stuff i'd rly like now :D

.perfume \some sort of fragrance bodymist etcc will do too , i don't lik musky smells or too sweet smells , mine's currently ralphlauren romance so my preference is smtg along tht line !
.lipstickkkks , i lik pink tones , or more cherry colours (but not red) & maybe purple ? HAH !
.NEED a pencilcase for uni!
.heels! since mine broke down on me that day , ima size 37
.headbands \chains etcc , those tht go around t head (not tie hair kind yknw)
.cute mouse & mousepad

omg im like damn shameless hahahahah but well im just saying what i like right im not asking anybody to get anything for me (:

photodiary (lol?!)

2010-08-08T00:22:00.004+08:00

i want to upload photos but blogger's photouploader annoys me bc its so , not, user, friendly zz

okay did it :D kinda sums up these 2 weeks, &my face is like red &dark now i feel so burnt &dry . t start of uni life is going to be t death of me being fair noooooooooooooooo

t start of it all

2010-08-03T16:49:00.001+08:00

im in hall right now. despite the past 8 months , uni hall oweek &evryt else feels like its coming way too fast &i dont have the mental preparation for it. theres gonna be major changes, more obstacles, &idk if i really belong here (in uni) or am i better off \happier doing something else . well time will tell

&where are you ?

heres another one

2010-07-30T23:51:00.003+08:00

HAHHAHA I LIKE.

falsies

2010-07-18T12:48:00.004+08:00

(like damn alot of stuff t talk about today)

i saw this photo my mum took of me dkwhen , &i was like O.O is that me?!?!??!!? i realise i didnt have alot of photos taken when i had my false eyelashes on , miss it a little ! at least i dont have to wear eyeliner etcccc

FRIENDS

2010-07-18T12:33:00.003+08:00

dont you realise your choice of friends are immensely important?! like when you have friends who tell you about new collections of makeup &get hyped up all about it , and start buying (more like splurging!!) on makeup. i (choose to heehee) get super influenced as well omg. my past 2 shopping purchases have been makeup . . O.O but seriously i rather spend on makeup than clothes for now. js thinking that bkk has much cheaper &unique stuff freezes my fingers from reaching into my wallet

ok , at least i dont let myself spend on unaffordable(t me ) stuff . . yknw what hah. or i dont let myself into the clubbing circle or whatever my friends do. i think it all boils down to what i want to do ?! lol despite the good ¬sogood stuff my friends are doing, I STILL LOVE YALL ! <3

&GIRLS! if you havent read my twitter (or if yall hvn heard about it ) , topshop has a makeup range &apparently sg is one of t few countries t carry it ? idk if thats true or not, &its sooooo affordable = cheaper than mac hah but idk about the quality we need to check it out manz. nevermind if yall dont like it, but i do ! &i wouldn mind some stuff yknw if yall have a growing purse .. &in about a months time, 17th is coming , hinttss winkssssss

yall know what i like right, pink purple (lip!!!!) blueeee light or dark or electric or whatever typical me stuff heeheee xoxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxoxooxo

O.L.C.D.

2010-07-18T12:02:00.002+08:00

our saturday outing again! t one a week after his birthday o:

(i look so OLD &my fingers look damn , shriveled here)

i think i eat mostly halal now hah !

hahahhahahhahah gummy worms ftw

i like this

series of mat pictures (ok laa kidding you wear so handsome tht day i likee)

<3

too much of a good thing . . is still a good thing :D

2010-07-12T22:56:00.002+08:00

going out with any of the girls or all of them = spending lika queen , girls ! we should maximise fun &minimise spending (how to not spend when mac has such nice makeup ?! &topshop?! &for c : mulberry awang everything in club21 lolllll )

cam would say: mulberry suckers!

cougar cam LOL

instax film yay

cam wants this book (costs a bomb needless t say)

if youre hungry , the below images might make your hungerpangs worse

&BECAUSE OF THIS. ALL BECAUSE OF THIS. we indulgedddddddd

satisfied!

eating also must sms boyfriend lol

cam looks so happy here :D

im going to miss times like these when uni starts

mattheinz . ysaelektra

2010-07-03T22:06:00.004+08:00

(colour contrast much!)

todays definitely a day to remember. love you.

ps. more to say, todays too hard t forget

outing w girls ! (all my titles seem to sound like that )

2010-07-01T23:06:00.003+08:00

finally. satisfied my craving for pot pie or whatev its called

vel & i couldn finish t soup &sandwich even though we shared loll

cheese ooooooozing out

went abit crazy in sephora

i know i have an artistic flair HAHAHHAHAH

that one strand is so cute

my hair looks slightly blonde here o: ?

(not my drinkzz)

roasted duck pizza . its lik peking duck on a pizza , GOOD

triple mushroom &garlic prawn pizza (?) okay but t former >this

the people in t car were lookg at us o.o

1. girls its on jolyn's pb , search ysa
2. seriously whats t point of putting up photos here ?!
3. shld i get formspring ? kinda fun knowing what qns i would get ! but then agn idk who will ask !
4. can uni start like soon , bc im bored alr. i have upcoming work but urhg really just want t start schl
5. but i really enjoy waking up late slpg anytime , js not being bounded by routine
6. cant wait fr 16july

7. omg t photos are huge, using jolyns pb so her imagesize settings are larger than mine

outing with b when i got back !

2010-06-27T16:23:00.002+08:00

this is t day we watched karatekid &i fell in love with it &xiao dre , t kungfu moves etcc hah

he stood there for at least 5mins lol ! xbox > me

mac big breakfast (y)

obviously after the movie hahahhaha

put it on , take it off , hang it up (it being the jacket ! watch karatekid !)

cool people carry 2 grey bags hah !

loveeeeeeeeee this pict (stalker girls pls do not steal ! hahahahhaha)

you look damn cute here like auntie

HUGE TREE

somebody hardworking (y)

&we saw a rainbow together AGAIN! what r t oddz

HUGE DOG. he hates it hahahhaha

snapshots of bkk

2010-06-23T11:16:00.002+08:00

i was lazy to bring my dslr so i settled with a , normal digicam. &its so annoying that i cant control the focus ! alot of picts consist of my cute sisters , not me hah

look who came to surprise send us off ! (&my sis so cute she alliance w him hehe thks!)

MY CREPE !! I FINALLY GOT T EAT IT AGAIN!

THEY ARE ALLLLLL RINGS. crazy i know right.

this is where our incrediblylipsmacking (whatever that means) food comes from !! ( &is that guy digging omg)

mangoes with glutinous rice (no we didnt eat it )

chatuchak

it was THIS HOT , can you imagine walking all around in this heat. &theres no wind !

that band thing is the craze in bkk &its so cute

best thing to drink in bkk (other than tomyum )

duck noodles , the duck is damnnnn goood .

need i say more. . anyw these are from the foodcourt. yes they have damn delicious food &its supercheap not like sg foodcourts. cheap &good now you see why i love bkk

we got tired from shopping at platinum

awesome coke &dinner, t best thing when we'r beat from shopping. look at t egg its damn good idk how they do it but it has like , 2 layers &it just . tastes. so. good.

had to buy dubi aka the name we came up for tomyum noodles

(Y) after a long day of walking

supersmall kittens

the floor in bkk , makes it more difficult to walk. appreciate our tiles here !

outside pratunam

LOOK HOW HOT IT IS

insect bite

airport waiting for our flight home !

i had t drink it again before we left.

looks gross after we cut it up but this tastes amazing, from starbucks. banana +chocolate muffin!

got milk?

anyway some parts of the airport are so stuffy its like theres no aircon at all

damn hardworking (Y)

dessert on plane then dozed off &arrived before i knew it !

im so thankful that bkk remained peaceful for t time we were there. but im like suffering from withdrawal symptoms (although im utterly sick of shopping but id kill to eat the food) . &i really want to go for another holiday pretty please !

back from bkk ofcourse.

2010-06-22T23:15:00.003+08:00

i protected my tweets so if you (i probably dont even know who im talking to) cant see it, yep thats the reason. i guess its pretty pointless for me to put the widget up anymore ?

anyway i loved bkk , obviously. &i think im suffering from postbkk withdrawal symptoms. it was tomyum soup every single day i couldn care less about my gastric. tomyum soup there is like no other (soup) . uploading some snapshots but its snailing i have no idea why also

IF you havent watched thekaratekid, go watch it ! i love it theres something so sweet &sincere about t show. &tht kid jaden smith, i like him. hes cool & hes acting is pretty good . its going to be a movie that il buy &watch over&over again ( ok slight exaggeration)

& nowadays when i eat i suddenly get a whiff of something that my brain has conditioned SMELLY. its like you can tryy to tolerate certain smells but imagine tasting it ? wtf . yesterday it felt like i suddenly had a spoonful of dog (yknw the dog smell ?) z then i never took another bite of what i was eating already but im sure the food is clean.

so, is my mind playing tricks on me ? if it is then, is my brain telling me not to eat. &if so , am i anorexic!??!?!?

huh

2010-06-17T13:00:00.001+08:00

incredibly im very stressed ! despite not having to work study etcc. &that really screws my gastric up i have totally no urge to eat right now zzzz

2010-06-14T11:45:00.000+08:00

i was reading on buzzle.com on t foods that people who have gastritis shld avoid. LOOk at it its almost ridiculous (in a sense tht i hv no idea wht else t eat)

'Deep fried foods, fast foods, fatty foods, pickles, peppers, spicy and salty foods are the foods to avoid for gastritis.

Avoid vinegar and things made by using vinegar, caffeine, soft drinks, alcoholic drinks, citric acid drinks and mustard.

Follow your health care provider's advice while taking ibuprofen and aspirin.

Foods rich in flavonoids such as apples, cranberries, garlic, onions and celery must be avoided as they help in the growth of Helicobacter pylori, which are gastritis causing bacteria.

Avoid high fat and high cholesterol foods as they are pretty hard on the digestive system and can certainly increase gastritis.

Some foods like cabbage, cooked dried beans, milk, broccoli can affect negatively since they increase the acid secretion in the body. Foods that show such effects must be avoided for gastritis. One must check for a particular pattern of foods that need to be avoided for gastritis.'

doesn't mean that i will avoid all this , i know better but i had no idea that this much food cn worsen my gastritis. i need a personal chef thks

whn in bangkok..

2010-06-08T00:12:00.003+08:00

dont have t dress up hah ! yet be prepared for t heat
= SUNBLOCK
jackets not needed
act like youre not rich
wear slippers
shop til arms break from carrying all t clothes etcc
JUST BUY DONT HESITATE
bargain at chatuchak
buy in bulk at pratunam platinum
EAT. think tomyum soup cockles omelettes. .
street food yes ! forget about hygiene thks
fruits. amazing fruits
im going to shop nonstop
yes miss me &pray im safe

BANGKOK

2010-06-07T23:09:00.001+08:00

YES IM GOING TO BANGKOK AGAIN !
NEXT WKND.
4.
HOPE THERES PEACE FROM NOW TIL THE MOMENT I GET BACK
PRAY FOR ME THKS !

CLOSE FRIENDS ANY REQUESTS JUST SMS ME ! WOOHOO

I <3 THE HOLIDAYS

&TMR B PLANNED A DAY OF ACTIVITIES FOR US YAY SO FUN YAY YAY YAY

help

2010-06-06T12:22:00.000+08:00

i need the answers , from idk who. whoever.

is it me or is it you.

theres smtg you shld know

2010-06-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

you will never regret making effort for me , because you shld knw tht i will do t same for you , only more

CAMS BIRTHDAY ♥

2010-05-31T11:19:00.002+08:00

yeah after half a month later the picts are up heehee i know right. so here goes

free magnum gold, nice !

we kinda went mad in topshop all bc of cams 20% hahaahahahah

start of gif images lol!

RICH

NEXT BIRTHDAY'S MINE :D

wow ?

2010-05-26T11:16:00.002+08:00

today we're one, unbelievable huh ?

odds

2010-05-21T17:58:00.000+08:00

what are the odds of meeting somebody who treats you perfectly , like he nv makes mistakes or makes you upset , or has no faults ? especially when such boys or men hardly exist.

so i guess the person who you decide the marry ultimately is somebody who makes you upset , hurts you , makes mistakes. but he's the only person whose faults you can tolerate. then again , how would we know whose faults we can tolerate t most. what if we just give up one & t next hurts you even worse. or is it always that t next one will always be better.

how would anybody know.

blame it on

2010-05-21T12:07:00.001+08:00

i know my hormones are going haywire when my mood changes drastically all of a sudden. like suddenly feeling damn fckd up &i cant control it urhghghhghg imbalance. next time when im pregnant im going to be so unstable omg.

soccer finals (the third)

2010-05-20T23:13:00.003+08:00

even though my throat hurts, &my body is exhausted all over (when im not even the one playing !?) &im so tired i just want t slp. today was worth it all. what i feel now is the immense pride of getting our championship back. not just back. but winning it. hard &tiring. im so proud of you &t entire team yall did it !

good day <3

HOTELSTAY +MUM NYS

2010-05-18T00:02:00.003+08:00

well it was some good bonding time &lotssssss of eating .

HELIX WITH MATTHEINZ

2010-05-17T22:55:00.002+08:00

yeah obviously when only 2 of us go out the picts are either of him or of me. &i think my hair (used to be ) quite bright omy

once a meridian , always a meridian

2010-05-11T23:43:00.001+08:00

even though ive graduated. i still see myself as a meridian. ofcourse since my sister &boyf are there !

mj is like 8 years old. but out of this 8 years, this is our 6IXTH time getting into soccer finals . thats amazing omg im immensely proud for us to establish a niche despite our young age. anyway yes we'r in finals now ! by hard work , sweat, tears, blood. (from t pov of a soccerboys girlf lol)

last yr vj beat mj in floorball &soccer to be the champions. this year, unfortunately(for them). theyre being kicked out at semis. yesterday sa won vj to qualify for finals. OMG !? if you dont support soccer you can never unds that feeling. its crazy just to know that vjs not gonna be in t finals. &that sa actually won! finally theyre going to t finals . &its sad bc we're never going to play against vj, its like expected that it will be mjvj finals. seems like mj's 2-1 win over vj in second round was a good start :D well but being up against sa for finals is going t be hell exciting of a match. sa's going t be damn hungry t get t championship. &so are we t get it BACK.

apparently mj kickd vj fb out of semis as well. im js hoping t best for mj , cmon ah sialll.

ps. this is nt a hate post.
pps. next year vjs going to be even hungrier than ever to get back not just their positions in t finals, but their championship. well next yr we'll talk about it . ITS JS GOING TO BE MJ ALL T WAY FOR NOW.
ppps. i doubt anybodys going t read this. not cam or vel fr sure ahahhahahah
pppps. i think this is t longest post in a long time hahaha

2010-05-11T12:53:00.001+08:00

my twitter gets first hand experience of my moodswings\emotions . im not emo , just very moody these days. well its like running the last leg of a marathon when what you rely on is sheer endurance and willpower.

packing my room right now ! its a very crazy experience because i have SO MUCH JUNK stuffed into a small area, yall can never imagine the state its in until you see it. i can hardly walk inside here lol ! well i hope cleaning up my room can be a therapeutic experience &hopefully im gonna feel better after this !

semis later this is so nervewrecking . sa actually won vj yesterday. which goes to say , for the first time in 3(?) or mre years, vjs not gonna be in finals OMG but we cant say that we'r gona win for sure. first we have todays match to overcome. then comes finals finals finals !

sudden spendthrift

2010-05-09T14:42:00.000+08:00

im usually very thrifty i don't like t spend a lot on shopping. or a lot of a single item. but yesterday i found myself wanting to buy a 230 agnes b bag. until i turned to see a turquoise blue ck bag , new stock. costing roughly t same price. & i had no hesitations in getting it. if i wasn't stopped by my mum.

what's gotten into me !? anyway im at benten having lunch now. check out my twitter. no picts of me ahahhaha my hair colour is a secret im so lame right.imo i look lik a Korean now hah bt im not getting used to the new colour yet

2010-05-05T22:43:00.000+08:00

ina fckg foul mood , fckg losing it. the only person who can do smtg is probably only god

disappointed (?)

2010-04-30T23:10:00.002+08:00

everytime i see people i know from the past, &how much theyve changed(for t worse) it makes me feel kinda , disappointed ? like i know theyre much better than that &they choose to ruin their lives. stupid right

some people seem like theyre all about play having fun socialising smoking drinking tattoos sex club etcc you get t idea, but theyre probably doing it because theyre feeling so fucked inside that they turn to all these to numb\forget everything. imagine 10years down the road thinking of the stupid stuff youve done(esp at t expense of studies , family, money , morals.) youre just gonna regret it . unless youre damn smart. actually i dont see why this is worth a post here but , i dont know. maybe i just want whoever to know that some people just see past whats on the outside &see how tornup the inside is. so dont lead yourself to the path of destruction. sometimes people want to help, but they just dont know how to or not spurred enough t help.

these kinda hollow lives last a mere moment.

to help me. get my mind off. you

2010-04-30T00:47:00.000+08:00

girlfriends. strangers brought together by fate. friends brought closer together by a spate of events. without being judgemental bt js offering a listening ear , comforting words. company. support.

work. too occupied to have time for anything else. wears me down beats me up. so i feel exhausted enough t crash when i get home

but thts about it

manmade

2010-04-26T20:23:00.000+08:00

if you're not pretty , there's always always makeup. if yre not convinced , js search those makeover\up videos on youtube or wherever. well but some guys like natural looking girls i know , so you can either 1. go for plastic surgery. or 2. perfect the natural \barely there makeup technique which imo is a feat bc IF yre nt so well crafted then you probably need some lot of makeup to help. one very quick & good feature t play up is yr eyes !

this is so random , probably bc i feel so naked without my lashes right nw :c

to ?

2010-04-22T22:37:00.000+08:00

hah i wonder who reads my blog. so funny that yall actually do even when its been so quiet here. i feel like im losing the ability to blog a proper long post thks to twitter. which i want to make private buttt for the sake of whoevers reading from here then its not worth. unless yall follow me ? but i know most of t people reading rather stay anonymous right. so weird. you're welcome if you (secretly) think im cool! hah but if yre a slut wanting to know about me then i don't want you here bye

WHITE

2010-04-20T22:27:00.001+08:00

im so attracted to white now. i want a white bag shoes shirts. but its awfully hard maintenance , &knowing myself im just going to wreck my white stuff. . when i get it

odd ?

2010-04-20T22:00:00.001+08:00

i find myself wanting something so much , but when i get closer to getting it, i get scared(?) & start to evade it

everything with fries with girls with skin exposed wherever

2010-04-12T22:24:00.002+08:00

hah i really need t brush up on my skills, &i havent touched dslr in a longtimeee. i should give my dslr a name. kiv.

wrong focus

loveeee marks&spencer

scary tongue. i looking at boys lol!!!

i realise one thing good about bringing MY own camera is that, i can censor everything i want to heehee &CHOOSE T POST UNGLAM PICTS HAHAH

still too much for me

LIKE

looking at boys again hah

look like anorexic girl eating hah

' see , i eat !' (ok la kidding right)

taking picts of ME

noo dont take me la pls

look lika kid

cam who you thinking about ? bzk ? LOL

yep thts what i couldn finish

neck cramp

cam's turn to show s__t pose hah !

fat face, no jawline

LIKE

series of stun face

this is t most convincing shocked face. . wait til you see t others

i look teethless

lmao omg posting this is suicide, but i wanted to show my good acting HAHAHAH KIDDING RIGHT IM GNG T DELETE IT SOON

i have no idea why i must widen my eyes

again , couldnt help it

i think after reading my blog those of you who dont really know me (doubt theres any , or else , how did yall knw abt my blog!?) will probably realise that im super unglam \unladylike , (if yall dont already know that hah!)

only sometimes

2010-04-11T13:42:00.003+08:00

sometimes i feel like i lost the passion to live life. just to enjoy &to play. sometimes i feel like i should just put evrything aside &play foolishly &endlessly.

yes but there are more times that i feel that life is more than just endless so-called 'fun' &that i have more things to care about more than just stupid brainless fun. we just cant undo or go back to the past to do whatever we have to. time is going to pass by us anyway &its not going to wait.

growup kids. theres more to life than just play.

fail

2010-04-06T23:57:00.002+08:00

yesterday cam &i went t run , like it was barely burning any calories. but we were so exhausted that i was struggling to wake up for work this morning. &cam , didn at all. EPIC FAILLLLL

&im about t reactivate fb again , something in me fears using fb again, facebookphobia. if you think im stupid or retarded you shld probably think again, bc everybdy has their own reasons & difficulties right. ok , didnt mean t be so , rude

sunday

2010-04-04T13:28:00.000+08:00

sunday = movie day today today !! more like drama day. im going to watchhhh all my beloved shows. &im suddenly in love with youtube bc they have so many shows\eps &they load so quickly!

currently laptop > blackberry hah

you cant force love

2010-04-04T02:34:00.001+08:00

damn crazy im like obsessed with 就想賴著妳. i watch it on my phone but coming online is a mistake bc its episode after episode !!

shldn hav

2010-03-29T21:01:00.002+08:00

shldn have gotten t data plan. ever since i got home (even before that acty) im lik stuck t my phone, this is crazy. &t be honest im getting dizzy from overusage hah time t take a break from it so here i am using my laptop!

i love my bb (both heehee)

tenth

2010-03-27T01:38:00.000+08:00

this month passed so quickly love you through our fights!

now i know why

2010-03-27T00:28:00.002+08:00

i dont shop alot but idk where all my $ goes to. i realise i spend on big ticket items (considerably) like dslr, bb, eyelash extensions, okay thats about it. not alot right so whr does t $ go to !?

&getting bb is making me antisocial (so ironic bc its supposed to connect ppl right) , bc im meddling with it t whole day trying t figure out how it works (so complex for my iq). &i take so long t type a decent sms. i just dont bother t. &now most of t time i reply lik msn msgs = v short. &i tend t spammmmm hah love t emoticons js lik cam does.

shld get data plan soon !

my daily makeup

2010-03-21T18:06:00.003+08:00

is nothing much really, i look sans-makeup most of t time right.
so basically its just :
applyg sunblock (cant stress enough t importance of it)
some blusher bc i look pale pretty much
drawing my brows bc they're so fine

&if im in t mood or theres something special , i wear liner, i use t gel kind i just love using t brush t apply. &it doesnt smudge. i dont use eyeliner.

well love is also a good makeup tool in itself! heehee

OH i didnt wear any makeup here LOL bt i extended my eyelashes !!

long awaited steamboat dinner !

2010-03-20T16:08:00.002+08:00

my special sauce

favourite mantous.

ms clumsy hah

jolyn beer girl hah

TRYING T GET ME INTO TROUBLE TSK

cam also trying to get me into trouble

sharing uss picts w us !

the next pict cannot be posted here ahahahah yall knw which one right!

dk why i laugh until lik that

model face LOL

wa yall go t japan ah so coollll lol

hah lazy to talk about it , the picts r selfexplanatory , we pretty much laughed ourselves silly t whole night. &i enjoyed myself thks girls !

2010-03-19T00:46:00.001+08:00

not going to stay up late tonight bc im going for full body checkup tmr. kinda nervous &scared at t same time i knw theres probably nothing wrong with me. but something has t account for my massive weight loss &etccskldkmsk

okay waking up my laptop is a big mistake bc im hooked t watching my dramas again , k 5 mins more hah

girls night out picts up probably tmr . . (if im nt lazy)

you in my heart

2010-03-16T23:56:00.001+08:00

i copyright this. if this appears somewher else t person is gng t be skinned alive bc i made this ! lol i damn violent

made my day

2010-03-15T23:27:00.003+08:00

today , one very silly boy attempted to surprise me by picking me up after work. buttttt he lost his way! well all he knew was that i work in bedok but he didnt know whr, so reckless of him but so sweet &cute. well thts why i say hes very silly &thts why i love him !

good times

2010-03-14T23:44:00.002+08:00

what can be better than knowing that youre loved by who you love every morning &night ?

taxing

2010-03-14T17:17:00.002+08:00

im so tired now i just submitted my applications for nus smu. &i dont know if i should apply for ntu as well. why cant evrybdy go t d same uni then i wont be so lonelyyyy. but my mind's made up im going to nus.

&my aim is to reach the highest i possibly can, not double degree la but if im very hardworking &everything goes well, i have the possibility of graduating with 2 masters and 1degree. imagine that. this is the highest goal right now !

puzzling

2010-03-09T16:54:00.002+08:00

when i know about the thoughts of ppl who think theyre v fucked , it puzzles me. &makes me wonder what my life is all about. like what is it that im going after. if i think people are being superficial, am i superficial myself ? seriously i dontknow what kinda person i am. am i stupid superficial bitchy hypocritical backstabbing gossipy. i rly dk.

sometimes i see people falling into a dark pit full of vices &immorality but idk wht i can do t help, or if im even compelled to help. or is it that im also in this dark pit.

cny visitg at tang's hse

2010-03-09T16:05:00.001+08:00

now LOOK whos being manje here hahh

remaining picts w coco aka cohen lol

so what

2010-03-08T22:31:00.000+08:00

so what if i got 87.75/90 for a lvls, i dont hav H2 bio i cant take medicine or even pharmacy. im so disappointed. z i dont want t go into business its not where my interest lies.

lik my wildest dream come true

2010-03-08T21:24:00.002+08:00

its true, getting my results from ms lai was a dream, it was what my classmates told me they thought i could do. i knew in me i could do it, just didn think it will rly come true. AAABB people would slap me if i said i was disappointed, but im still short of my straight a's. well im satisfied now i know i hav done my best &im so glad i did !

now t doors t my bright-as-t-sun future is opened &im going to make full use of all t chances i get!

tokidoki

2010-03-05T01:19:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly hate whts going on in my life &how my life is.

yes but everything is just a passing phase.

o m g

2010-03-04T23:45:00.002+08:00

this is t worst feelg i ever felt. its worse than quarelling with a boyfriend or sis or mum dad etcc omg its t fear of t unknown, &it . will. DEFINITELY. change my life.

im fckg scared lik my stomach is weak my legs r giving way &i can feel my gastric coming back. really. omg. i cannot imagine tmr. i will probably be trembling away in schl. omg. this is not excitement. n o . this is fear &worry.

luckily im nt one of those who hav been worrying since forever, this just started. . yesterday lol! i managed t remain chill bc play>>results. bt reality is so imminent now &my path in life (ok maybe too farfetched) will be a right smack in my face tmr

&im so ignorant about tmr bc i just knew not too long ago t reporting time. aiya i dont hav newspapers or time to watch news so i hav to rely on friends.

i dont usually blog lik how i talk (not so literally) but this time is really different omggggggg ignorance is bliss pls.

yet another t come

2010-02-26T23:57:00.002+08:00

NINE MONTHS. SAME AS T GESTATION PERIOD OF A PREGNANT LADY.

yaa i wish a baby would hav popped out now hah

stuff lik this

2010-02-23T17:10:00.003+08:00

i hav no idea why ive been feeling so hot nowadays, lik literally i perspire super easily. currently id rather be freezing in a cold room than be out without aircon. urgh

&im so bored on aftns when i dont hav t work bc everybdy's either working or schooling! so i sepnd my time doing stuff

&im rly sick of seeing stuff i hate seeing\feeling\facing. fckg hate it. hate t feelg of hating smtg evn mre z

i love stuff lik tht, big voices, unity etcc fr a cause, ofc its alw subject t criticism bt i js love this We Are The World 25 For Haiti - Official Video theres evn autotune +rap hw cool is it

why

2010-02-11T23:30:00.001+08:00

is it that ppl ard me seem so emo nowadays, is it infectious. theres more to life than feeling fckd up hello evrybdy

't happiest ppl do not necessarily hav t best things. they simply appreciate t things they hav' warren buffet.

cheer up everybody\anybdy

mixx

2010-02-11T22:09:00.005+08:00

i havent bought anything to wear for cny. &i hav no idea why my clothes keep disappearing, now i feel lik i hav nothing to wear. &worse of all i lost my habit of shopping. partly bc i dont want t spend so much knowing that bkk has so much nicer ¬ t mention, cheaper stuff. so. wht. am. i. gng. t . wear ?

need an unlimited (paid fr) credit card asap. (hah i knw la thts nt t point)

cny coming evn before i knw it. no time t colour\cut my hair, or buy clothes, or primp myself up. omg. i need t go t a salon badly, maybe tmr.

&im super not in festive spirit , though i hav been munching on pineapple tarts, love letters etcc yum

&i hav no time t run this wk omg

&its so nice going back t mj bc i dont feel one bit left out, having nys &evrybdy else &b!

i just burst my pimple, (yes i burst my pimples) ahahha now stop talking abt it. but im nt one bit bothered abt it, bc thts what my body does. it works! it means that its producing enough oestrogen &yada gen gen. ive learn t accept my body for how it is, no matter how it looks , in what way it works. looks arent everytg. if my morals &how i perceive things r only based on looks, then evrytg would be so superficial. beauty is only skin deep. thr r ppl who look good &ofc are beautiful within. but there are more who arent t prettiest sexiest coolest handsomest, yet theyre still attractive. its not only looks that make you you. these ppl might be resilient, kind, patient, hav a good set of morals , or just anything that is non-looks.

if youre lucky, you hav good lucks. but you js hav t accept t fact tht we're all made differently, thats what makes us special right, so embrace it. look deeper within &youll find beauty lies thr

dkwhts wrong w me, but WHOS READG ?

pretty please

2010-02-10T17:36:00.000+08:00

somebody pls sponsor my boyf &i to go on a holiday to any beautiful beach places\bangkok that would be really nice !

WHY DO I WORK

2010-02-10T16:17:00.004+08:00

i also dkwhy.

do i need t $ ? okay laa, not desperate for it. but more would be good for my bank ^^

do i need t occupy myself. yess i guess , unless i hav kids \ friends t tuition

i think its good tht i work la then i can stop bugging ppl hah &i get t earn mre (evn though i hardly shop now , major o: right.) &i get t learn alottt working in a clinic, really. i learn super alot of stuff, medical or not. &its good for my body too. bc i wake up early &slp early, eat regularly yadaaaa you get it

woohoo &i can cycle t work, so fun ! i repaired my bike js nw , its more perfect than perfect nw hah! byebyeee

oh &recently ppl keep telling me i look lik angmoh, eh really is it. i take tht as a cute compliment !

life. &whatever it brings

2010-02-08T23:08:00.004+08:00

sometimes i wish my brain would be less active. ie. think less.

without whatever good\bad life brings, it wouldn be life anymore right

my right nostril is blockd it feels lik when yre drowning &water goes in. but mucus\water literally keeps flowing out. i just wna slp i dont feel well , in & out well but who would care , bc its my own not anybody elses.

a passing cloud, a whisper, a transition from cocoon to butterfly, a buzz.